Being Judgmental About Being Judgmental

In yesterday's post, we looked at a way to define and measure spiritual fitness. The implicit message of any measurement is: "measure up!" With measurement comes judgment. Judgmentalism about our own or other people's physical fitness or cognitive fitness or emotional-social fitness can sometimes provide short-term motivation, but can also increase unhappiness and be counter-productive. Judgmentalism about our own or other people's spiritual fitness is directly contrary to the spiritual fitness we are judging inadequate.

Our culture does have a mania for self-improvement -- whether it's in the physical area, the cognitive, the emotional, or the social.?Get more physically fit: Exercise, diet.?Be smarter, train your brain for greater memory, speed, attention, flexibility, and problem-solving.?Hone your emotional skills, sharpen your social skills.?Here's what you need to do to?win friends,?influence people,?get the promotion,?achieve success,?make your marriage work and/or get that cute man or woman to notice you,?find fulfillment,?be energized,?get the respect you deserve,?prevent wax build-up, and?fight tooth decay.

These are the themes that fill the shelves of the self-help section.?There's even a self-help book on how to write a bestselling self-help book. The message seems to be that you don't really have it all together unless you have written a book to explain it to the rest of us.

Over and over we are told: whoever you are, you're not good enough.?Wherever you are on life's journey, you really ought to be further along by now.?Whatever your grief or burden or wounding, get over it.?Get fixed.

Oddly, at the same very same cultural historical juncture at which we judge ourselves unworthy at every turn, we are also more prone to judge ourselves greater than we are.

Ninety-three percent of US drivers identify themselves as above-average drivers.?Ninety-four percent of college professors believe they have above-average teaching skills.

"In the 1950s, 12 percent of high school seniors said they were a 'very important person.'?By the '90s, 80 percent said they believed that they were" (David Brooks, citing Jean M.?Twenge, New York Times, 2011 Mar 11. Click here.)?

And it's no wonder: our young people, more than any previous generation, have been "bathed in messages telling them how special they are."

We think we're better than most others -- better than average -- and at the same time, think we're not good enough.?We yearn to be further and further above average -- which means more and more distance (perceived distance anyway) between ourselves and other people.?There is actually no contradiction: we simply judge ourselves inadequate, and we judge other people ? average people ? even worse.

Our more agrarian great-grandparents were certainly capable of passing judgment, but I don?t think it consumed their lives as often as our judgmentalism consumes ours.

There is a place for judgment, evaluation, good-bad, better-worse -- and there always will be.?Judging Mind has important work to do.?The problem is that it works overtime. Judging Mind seems to want to take over when what we would like it to take is a break. Spirituality is about seeing the appropriate, limited role for judgment -- while also holding in our awareness the wider context within which judgment has its little corner. That wider context transcends our petty assessments of better and worse.

Your spirit is the part of you that understands that you are good enough ? that you are, in fact, perfect. My concern with such instruments as Robert Cloninger's Temperament and Character Inventory is that it might be taken as making spirituality into one more area where you aren't good enough and you?ve got to get better. That would undermines the very spirituality it purports to encourage.

Although we might look back on moments of self-forgetfulness and realize we were performing very well, at the time, in the moment, we weren't thinking about our performance as good or bad.?We had lost the sense of being a separate self to judge better or worse and were just flowing, like a current in a river that has no concept of itself as separate from the rest of the river or from the rest of the earth's waterways.?As soon as the thought enters your head, "hey, I'm playing superb tennis today," or "I'm painting a real masterpiece here," that judgment ends the self-forgetfulness.?In the first game of the 1992 professional basketball championship series between the Portland Trailblazers and Chicago Bulls, Bulls star Michael Jordan was evidently "in the zone." He scored 35 points in the first half alone. He also hit six?three-point shots in the first half. Three-pointers were not Jordan's forte, yet on this day he was popping them in like candy in the first half. After the sixth one swished through the net, near the end of the half, he shrugged with palms upward as he trotted back up court. The gesture seemed to say, "I don't know why I'm playing so well." With that moment of self-consciousness, the spell was broken. Jordan hit no three-pointers the rest of the game and scored only four points in the second half.

Transpersonal identification is recognition that we are the other -- and there's no place there for judging ourselves better than others, better than average.

Spirituality involves acceptance, the affirmation and embrace of reality exactly as it is, not judging ourselves or others as needing to be better.

That's why I say the very idea of spiritual fitness misses the point.?We aren't going to learn to be nonjudgmental by judging ourselves for being too judgmental.?The spiritual path is not about fixing something that's broken about you. It's about the abiding truth that you aren't broke, and don't need fixing.?You really are perfect exactly the way you are, and couldn't possibly be any better.

Here I am with my judging mind, asking: How can I turn off this judging mind??I can't make it happen. However I might characterize it -- being awake, more epiphanies, inner peace -- I can't make that happen.?As soon as I think there is such a thing as a separate me, and soon as I judge it as not spiritually fit enough, I have erected an impassable barrier.?My very effort to take it down is what makes it stronger.?I'm telling myself: "Try harder . . . not to try so hard."

The spiritual path unfolds slowly, and in its own way, on its own schedule. If we try to push spirit, spirit will push back, and we'll get nowhere. Rather than setting out to "correct" our "faults," spiritual development comes from loving our faults. Slowly, acceptance (one of the Cloninger's sub-scales for self-transcendence) extends to every part of who we are (which transpersonal identification, another sub-scale for self-transcendence, recognizes as all of the universe) -- even the parts we wanted to "fix."

You can make?your biceps strong by forcing them to do the exercises. The spiritual "muscle" doesn't work that way. You can't make?it strong.?Love it and accept it in its weakness. Then -- only then -- can it develop the confidence to grow strong on its own.

In tomorrow's post I'll say more about embracing our demons.

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This post is part 4 of a series.
Previous: Part 3: "Defining Spiritual Fitness"
Beginning: Part 1: "Primary and Secondary Spiritual Practice"

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